I Have a Confession
I hate how I dream about the person I want to be every day and every night, so much to the extent that I pay more attention to this imaginary "me" that is so much better than what I really am like, than I pay attention to the real me. And I know this person will probably just stay in my dreams, because these dreams are not particularly realistic in any way.
So why do I keep dreaming about that person? And I say "that person", because even though it is a dream about a better, cooler me that is pretty much the opposite of what I'm like now, it's not ME. It's so complicated and confusing. I can't explain it.
I guess it started when I was really bored and thought of what it'd be like to actually have friends or something, then from there, it became this huge thing that occupies my mind 70% of the time, and it's not healthy!!
I know I will try to work hard to get as close as this person in my head, but I know reality will never equate to my dreams because it's just so unrealistic and stuff.
It's not doubt or negativity - just a realistic outlook on things for once.
...Well, that's your bubble of random thoughts and nonsense for the day.
So why do I keep dreaming about that person? And I say "that person", because even though it is a dream about a better, cooler me that is pretty much the opposite of what I'm like now, it's not ME. It's so complicated and confusing. I can't explain it.
I guess it started when I was really bored and thought of what it'd be like to actually have friends or something, then from there, it became this huge thing that occupies my mind 70% of the time, and it's not healthy!!
I know I will try to work hard to get as close as this person in my head, but I know reality will never equate to my dreams because it's just so unrealistic and stuff.
It's not doubt or negativity - just a realistic outlook on things for once.
...Well, that's your bubble of random thoughts and nonsense for the day.
