I Have a Confession

My boyfriend and I are in couple's counseling. But I can't help but think we've dug a hole and can't get out of it. I feel like something is hollow inside of me. I want to rebuild, but I can't if we keep crying. There's so much to lose, yet, so much we need to bring back into the relationship. There's this void that I keep wanting to fill. But I feel as though it just opened wider.

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firefall

Yes, you clearly need to forgive yourself - i dont know what happened (obvs) but its enough punishing yourself. And your bf needs to let it go, too, whatever it was.

PoisonLace · 41-45, F

An old friend came back into my life and we got closer as my boyfriend and I drifted...and I ended up making out with the other person. And then I kept it from my boyfriend for a week, which is totally against my character. I would never have imagined myself doing that, ever. But I realized I loved both of them...and now I'm in individual counseling and couple's counseling.