I Have a Confession

My boyfriend and I are in couple's counseling. But I can't help but think we've dug a hole and can't get out of it. I feel like something is hollow inside of me. I want to rebuild, but I can't if we keep crying. There's so much to lose, yet, so much we need to bring back into the relationship. There's this void that I keep wanting to fill. But I feel as though it just opened wider.