I Have a Confession

I don't think I would ever be able to find my way back to what me and my significant other had before, but I also don't think I would ever be able to find someone more patient and more willing to listen than him. Our relationship was built on trust and communication, as well as love for eachother in the way that we understood the other person. I am not in any way trying to contradict the recent events of being unhappy in the situation. I am just remembering what kind of person he is deep down, and that it just isn't on the surface at this point in his life. At this point in his life, he is a tired soul because he uses all his mental energy on hard problems at his job...and he hasn't been keeping up with the work outs even though he has an eliptical in the office. I know I'm a selfless person who tends to sympathize with him and understand him, and care for him...but I can also admit that his habits and drastic life change (time wise) bothers me. I find myself concerned for the health of our relationship, and wondering if there's a way to salvage it. There is always a way. But I have people telling me to run from it. They tell me that I should start over. Part of me wants to, but who's to say I will find happiness with someone else? Who's to say it is better? As a person who has problems making decisions, I tend to weigh the outcomes. I weigh the consequences and the could bes. I don't like hopping into situations that may make my life a lot more complicated to handle. I'm not saying I'm set in this, I'm saying that I am trying to give it another chance. We weren't sour for the majority of the relationship. If rekindling it is possible then I am going to try it. Because leaving is not a great thing to do in my current timeline. What I mean by that is, I'm in school still. I can't work full time to keep my own place without falling on my face in school, because I'm full time there too. I'm at a cross roads in that category. And it would brake my heart to leave so instantly without trying to work things out. I'm already heartbroken as it is. It shouldn't have to get worse so quickly. If I were to choose the other man over who I have now, my life would take a drastic plunge into a whole different situation. Sure he cares about me, but I would be exposed to a life style change in which would involve kids who don't have a clue who I am or why I'm suddenly in the picture...of course, I have no problem with them, but they might have a problem with me. I would also feel a lot more lost at square one than the track I've been taking where I have the access to just concentrate on school and school alone. I don't want to be a girl who inslaves herself to the working class that have dead end jobs. I don't want to be like my father who never pursued his passion to write and settled in pizza delivery for the rest of his life, planning on working until he drops.