I Have a Confession

If you read my last post it's still true. I just have a lot on my mind I would ask you face to face...but you never want to come around. Being a water sign my moods change like the weather, so I am always back and forth in thought. Please forgive me. Sometimes I question whether you really care, or if you once did and don't have the heart to tell me it's not the same as before. A lot has changed, but I still feel that bond. It's a bond that should be dead after so long in the dark. Is it there with you too? If it is, you would risk the chance to visit, or evne call without me having called already. I have told you before that I feel alone. It's true...I don't have many people in my life I can talk to. I thought that you would be one I could always talk to and confide in. I thought we would be able to hang out again and make up for lost time. That's what I want. I'm not sure if you can...or if that's what you want as well. Another question I have for you, regarding my last post: You said you loved me a long time ago. Is it really true? Or is it something else? I get the feeling it's not, and it hurts too much to hear my voice. Do I make your heart jump? I am sorry if I do, because you're about to start a life with someone far away...and I hope your life is grand. I want nothing more for you than happiness. And even though I'm with someone you must always know there is a place in my heart for you. Don't forget me when you're gone...