I Have a Confession

It would be easier if you didn't love me at all. I may even get to see you more often because there would be no jealousy or awkwardness. I would get to see you before you disappeared forever...and I'd find a good excuse to let go. Because we both know it's too late. We missed our chance a long time ago. Yet I still find myself wanting to hold on, even though I shouldn't because I'm taken. It's no blessing at all to hold on, and I feel like I shouldn't have dug up my past. But I guess it was because I would forever wonder what would have happened if I hadn't. I'm glad I did, because now I know...that it was a lesson.
I remember when you first told me how you felt. You say you don't remember. Maybe that's because I hung up on you. The truth is, I was so stunned I didn't know what to say. I felt butterflies in my stomach and was too nervous to reply. And then there was that time you hugged me when I was crying, and I think you started to cry too. You told me you loved me. I don't even think you knew what you were doing. I replied that time.
I will forever remember these moments. They were genuine...true. And even if I don't ever see you again, nothing can take them away.