I Have a Confession

I'm trying to fall back into apathy. I had a long stint of it for a while a couple years ago, and there was little reason back then why I shouldn't have cared about everything going on. I have been full time in college, and because of the stress I couldn't handle it all. So my brain decided to feel apathetic (turn off emotions)  towards everything. I just didn't care. I feel as though I should fall back into apathy...you know, force myself to stop caring? I say this because it would be kinder to me at this point in my life. If I can force myself back into apathy, it would be a nice little break from all the thinking, and worrying. My mind would become numb to the problems I feel I've created. I know it's bad that I want to stop caring...but can you blame me for wanting to start over?