I Am Trying To Accept The Things I Cannot Change

The struggle is real and A little unfair... I know life is unfair and I get that, but why can't it change when you worked so hard to change it? At some point you know and the people that are close to you know you have tried you everything and now its up to the universe, a higher power, a divine intervention to make the jump. You go through so many thoughts and emotions. I am really doing everything that I can be doing? Come on mind lets think of creative ideas to change things. What wrong with me? There must be something wrong with me! I must not be good enough! How do I come good enough? What does that person have that I don't? What makes them so special over me? I know everyone don't walk the same path and I know everything is not met to be understood, but I feel like I am missing out on life. Sometimes its so close I can taste it, but it slips through my fingers. I just need that little extra something, that push to make it be.