I Am Trying To Accept The Things I Cannot Change

If only I had known that this would be the last time we would drive home together;
I would not have sat in silence staring out of the window;
I would have asked you about your day and maybe laughed at one off your jokes.

If I had known that this would be the last time I would watch a sunset with you;
I would have hold your hand and appreciated as the sun disappeared.

If I had known that tonight would be the last night you would lay next to me;
I would not have turned my back on you;
But instead I would have cuddled up closely to you, listening to your heart as we fell asleep.

If I had known that this would be the last time you kissed me goodbye;
I would have hold you longer, smelling you, feeling your touch.

You never said goodbye or gave me an explanation.
Not knowing if I should hold on or wait, I held onto hope.

But with every season that passed, I had to accept that you were gone, it was time to let you go.