change of mind

i write down what i could never tell anyone in person, somehow hiding behind a fake account is rather calming, knowing that whoever is reading this is somewhat like me, somewhere in this world. who knows maybe we have or will cross paths in life, and we will most likely never know. i used to think it wasn’t worth living anymore and quite frankly that thought still passes by in my head. but life is the one thing no one chose to have, yet, we are all here. i believe in purpose, we are set here for a reason- that i can’t really explain cuz i guess you never really know- and i’m not going to be necessarily defined by the search for my purpose, i think who you choose to be everyday; sad, angry, happy, a liar, loyal, an atheist, or a christian defines you and what your purpose will be in life.Your purpose is who you are. the things you say are your purpose, the things you do to yourself and others are your purpose. i’m not trynna say everything is in your control cuz it’s not, but who you chose to be everyday is in your control and what i believe to be our purpose.

think about it tho, that one remark u made to ur friend might have not seemed much for u , but he prob never forgot, ur purpose wasn’t meant to make him feel bad but your choice to say that was your purpose, the way he felt with his emotions was his purpose. i might have confused u guys abit more but hopefully u get it. don’t forget to be easy on yourself, make sure you are in tune with your body and mind and remember you cannot change someone’s actions however you can choose how it affects you.

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MartinTheFirst · 26-30, M

I've realized that there is no purpose, no meaning, therefore the desire to chase it is evil, since you can never obtain it, leaving you empty.

What is the meaning of life?
Is it to do good and to make other people's lives better? Then the meaning would be happiness. But we all die and then it ends right, so does that end the meaning of everything if all living things die? If we live forever, is happiness the meaning of life at that point? I'd take that much rather than being sad forever, but is there actually any meaning to the feeling alone?

When we think of meaning, we tend to see it as an end goal. In movies it tends to be someone fighting against evil, you can clearly feel that the characters in that kind of movie has meaning, but the meaning is fulfilled and ends at the end of the movie. If it ends, is it really the answer to what the meaning of life is, just struggling to get to a better place?

If you're a christian like myself, then you believe that we'll eventually get to a paradise where we in fact will feel happy forever, but that means that there will no longer be anything to fight against to get to a better place, we're at the best place. So at that point does meaning end? You can say that your meaning in life is to follow God's will, but then what is the meaning of God? He has existed forever, created everything, and what for? Probably just because he wants to.. but is there meaning to that?

What is the meaning of life? What does that even mean? What is meaning? Trying to define it is a chase that brings you all the way to the top of the order of creation, and then it stops abruptly no matter what you place at the top in your beliefs.

You can define it more short term and leave it emotionally charged like I've explained, but what you're really doing then is ignoring the question of what the meaning of life actually is. "Meaning" is supposed to be a reason to do something that goes beyond what we feel. Rather, it's the very reason to feel, the reason to believe in something, and a reason to live despite what we might feel.

So instead I focus on why and when we start thinking about the meaning of life. It tends to be when we're depressed, when we're sad and something is lacking from our lives, such as happiness. Once we're happy, we never question the meaning of life, we don't care for it, it's not important. Therefore, I can only conclude that the chase after meaning of life is an evil concept that is born from hardship and illogical thinking that sends you spiraling even further.

Carazaa · F

@MartinTheFirst

"I've realized that there is no purpose, no meaning, therefore the desire to chase it is evil, since you can never obtain it, leaving you empty."

If you are a Christian how can you believe this when God has told us he has a plan for your life?