I don't talk about it anymore and haven't with my therapist even yet
But I had a boyfriend that would grab my hands so I couldn't leave while he yelled in my face
He wouldn't let me close doors
He said I had to kneel whenever he entered the room.
I did.
He stepped on my face when we had sx
He told me no one would ever love me
He ripped me out of the bath and locked me out of our apartment with only a towel on
He threatened to hit Lucy.
I slashed my arm open to stop him.
He came to the hospital and threatened me after he called the ambulance.
He demeaned me for needing stitches.
I left him.
He found out where I was and convinced me to come back.
My friend's mum said, "you don't have to go with him... I don't feel good about this." (They were giving me shelter).
I had spent Thanksgiving with their lovely family and had two weeks of peace where I focused on my plants and art.
As soon as we got in the uhaul (I paid for) he said, "you fking owe me one."
I remembered the dread.
The way he'd hold me.
The way he'd force me on the floor and lay on top of me so I couldn't move.
I am 5'5" and was 115lbs and he was 6'4" and I don't know how heavy.
But I couldn't get him off.
I reached out to his ex and she said he did the same things to her but she didn't want to talk about it.
I am glad I eventually was able to break free of him but it took a cousin I had never met who had also survived abuse.
Luckily it only took four tries.
This man had taken my phone when I felt unsafe.
He had r ped me several times.
He constantly told me I was insane and unloveable.
He isolated me and I lost a lot but I am SO MUCH stronger now.
Thank you, mfer.
You can't break a strong woman. And now I can help other victims.
Oh yeah, and side note. Abusive relationships move super quick.
There is so much more that happened but I only dated this guy for a little over a year and we lived together for only a few months.
Things escalated extremely quickly.
He wouldn't let me close doors
He said I had to kneel whenever he entered the room.
I did.
He stepped on my face when we had sx
He told me no one would ever love me
He ripped me out of the bath and locked me out of our apartment with only a towel on
He threatened to hit Lucy.
I slashed my arm open to stop him.
He came to the hospital and threatened me after he called the ambulance.
He demeaned me for needing stitches.
I left him.
He found out where I was and convinced me to come back.
My friend's mum said, "you don't have to go with him... I don't feel good about this." (They were giving me shelter).
I had spent Thanksgiving with their lovely family and had two weeks of peace where I focused on my plants and art.
As soon as we got in the uhaul (I paid for) he said, "you fking owe me one."
I remembered the dread.
The way he'd hold me.
The way he'd force me on the floor and lay on top of me so I couldn't move.
I am 5'5" and was 115lbs and he was 6'4" and I don't know how heavy.
But I couldn't get him off.
I reached out to his ex and she said he did the same things to her but she didn't want to talk about it.
I am glad I eventually was able to break free of him but it took a cousin I had never met who had also survived abuse.
Luckily it only took four tries.
This man had taken my phone when I felt unsafe.
He had r ped me several times.
He constantly told me I was insane and unloveable.
He isolated me and I lost a lot but I am SO MUCH stronger now.
Thank you, mfer.
You can't break a strong woman. And now I can help other victims.
Oh yeah, and side note. Abusive relationships move super quick.
There is so much more that happened but I only dated this guy for a little over a year and we lived together for only a few months.
Things escalated extremely quickly.
