I am to the point where I am desperately trying to find some kind of meaning or purpose for my life. I am at my witt's end. I have so many hobbies and interests, but no way of putting any of that knowledge to any practical use.
I don’t think there is any meaning or porpoise in life. You’re probably making yourself miserable searching for something that was never there. Relax and find something you enjoy doing and do it. Get a pet, go to the park. So much you can do, and so much beauty in the world if you just look.