Today is 13th August which is special for me. Do you have any memories too with this date?
So today is 13th August. Its special because 13th August 2024 was exactly the day when I finally overcome my years of shyness near women at the age of 23. Yeah it's been 2 years already but it was significant for me. I also entered my 2nd year of MBA on that day. So yeah I had been extremely shy near girls and avoided talking to them for years. I wasn't naturally shy of them but it happened due to the bullying especially by this guy Arjun who was my classmate in 5th to 10th grade and he bullied me, insulted me harshy and especially humiliated me (making me perform embarrassing tasks in front of others) regularly more during 8th to 10th grade and another boy Sai Prasad who was the topper of the class and respected student regularly belittled me once even calling me an error in this world and tried to convince others intellectually that I was a loser or dumb plus he was only mean to me but normal or neutral to everyone else and other boys too laughed and joined in. So yeah I already started getting hesitant around 6th grade but it changed to complete avoidance of talking to girls by the time I was a teenager.
By 11th grade I continued in the same school and finally Arjun and Sai Prasad were gone but I got into trouble with my seniors who were in 12th grade as I got crush on a senior girl and this guy Anand who probably was her bf or someone close to her got mad at me and threatened me and turned his friends especially Rahul who was popular in school against me and they often threatened me, cornered me and chased me around and seeing that even some 4 construction workers who were doing some renovation work in school tried to intimidate me showing bricks or shovel or pretending to chase me just to intimidate me and they laughed seeing me scared. After the seniors got hostile due to my crush, i got even scared that getting involved with girls means trouble so yeah I spent ages 16-19 completely content with 0 female interactions. I had little to no female interactions from age 10/11 to 22. Age 20 was when I wanted a gf but I was too shy. My undergrad years were in engineering but it was male dominated and also many guys in college just used me for snacks or money and I was mostly isolated in college during lunch breaks.
I entered my 1st year of MBA as the same shy and hesitant guy at 22. I had crushes like Anshika but still couldn't initiate. I was feeling massive FOMO(Fear Of Missing Out) so I decided on my 1st day of 2nd year of MBA in August 13th to finally overcome that shyness and be confident and i finally initiated conversations with several women in campus especially this girl Dimple who was my MBA junior and it felt so good so yeah the day feels significant and a turning point for me. But sadly 2nd year had less or scattered classes and the final semester was dissertation so off-campus so yeah it felt so unfair that when I was finally becoming social, the campus life was ending. So yeah I started talking to more and more women including practicing my confidence by initiating conversations with foreign expat women in UB City mall of our city Bangalore in India too at 23-24 but yeah as soon i started talking to Indian women too along with foreigners in Central areas of our city Bangalore in India as MBA got over, I left an internship I was doing where I talked with other female interns because the role wasnt aligned with my specialization and I am job searching now so I don't want to get isolated again and I want social oxygen and i talk to women more because female interactions is what I missed out on during my formative years so as a 25 year old man now I am making up for those lost years.
By 11th grade I continued in the same school and finally Arjun and Sai Prasad were gone but I got into trouble with my seniors who were in 12th grade as I got crush on a senior girl and this guy Anand who probably was her bf or someone close to her got mad at me and threatened me and turned his friends especially Rahul who was popular in school against me and they often threatened me, cornered me and chased me around and seeing that even some 4 construction workers who were doing some renovation work in school tried to intimidate me showing bricks or shovel or pretending to chase me just to intimidate me and they laughed seeing me scared. After the seniors got hostile due to my crush, i got even scared that getting involved with girls means trouble so yeah I spent ages 16-19 completely content with 0 female interactions. I had little to no female interactions from age 10/11 to 22. Age 20 was when I wanted a gf but I was too shy. My undergrad years were in engineering but it was male dominated and also many guys in college just used me for snacks or money and I was mostly isolated in college during lunch breaks.
I entered my 1st year of MBA as the same shy and hesitant guy at 22. I had crushes like Anshika but still couldn't initiate. I was feeling massive FOMO(Fear Of Missing Out) so I decided on my 1st day of 2nd year of MBA in August 13th to finally overcome that shyness and be confident and i finally initiated conversations with several women in campus especially this girl Dimple who was my MBA junior and it felt so good so yeah the day feels significant and a turning point for me. But sadly 2nd year had less or scattered classes and the final semester was dissertation so off-campus so yeah it felt so unfair that when I was finally becoming social, the campus life was ending. So yeah I started talking to more and more women including practicing my confidence by initiating conversations with foreign expat women in UB City mall of our city Bangalore in India too at 23-24 but yeah as soon i started talking to Indian women too along with foreigners in Central areas of our city Bangalore in India as MBA got over, I left an internship I was doing where I talked with other female interns because the role wasnt aligned with my specialization and I am job searching now so I don't want to get isolated again and I want social oxygen and i talk to women more because female interactions is what I missed out on during my formative years so as a 25 year old man now I am making up for those lost years.
22-25, M
