I just wanna feel something, anything

I want that butterfly feeling in the pit of my stomach, I want those first date jitters, I want the spark of chemistry. Truth be told, it has been way too long (at least 8 years) since I've had any kind of attachment or intimacy with a female. It doesn’t help that my current relationship situation feels more like having a roommate than a partner. Problem is, I'm stuck here if I want to be able to continue making ends meet. As the days past by, hope fades just a little more.