Idk there is this big thing missing in my life which makes me feel some void for real. Do you relate to it?
So yeah it just feels like for a long time I am missing an environment which gives me a proper routine and also steady people or peers in my life. Yeah like I just recently completed my MBA and job searching for literally about an year as a whole even though my MBA fully got over just 7 months ago but yeah regular classes got over a year ago and final semester had no classes except some dissertation project so I am searching for a long time. So yeah I obviously had a routine during MBA classes, peers, classmates, female friends like Soniya, crushes like Anshika and later on Akansha, then women like Dimple, male peers teasing me, exams, assignments and many more. Then in early 2025 i interned in this edtech company which I quit but I still had some routine and colleagues and fellow interns and all but now for a year I have been more in home and my only form of socializing has been interacting with strangers in Cafes, malls, bookstores and Church Street in Central areas of our city Bangalore in India or digitally through Instagram and WhatsApp.
Yeah I am meeting many interesting people including women from diverse countries like Germany, France, US, Netherlands, UK, Mexico and even less known countries like Ivory Coast and also Indian women as well but most are strangers and one time interactions. What I am talking about is I don't have a routine currently and it feels frustrating and no people or peers whom I can regularly meet, talk to and share things. It's not always fun chatting on Instagram and sharing videos of cars i see etc unlike in person. Job searching is already making me stressed and the ghosting is making me feel less hopeful at times but I am definitely trying. I am 25 and miss having the proper routine and structure in my life. Yeah I never really had friends due to bullying and trust issues but things improved during MBA and I had several memorable people like Soniya, Anshika and also several male classmates who were supportive, some teasing but much different than school and engineering days. It's a shame that I socialized a lot on our MBA convocation 7 months ago and I even confidently talked to Anshika and complimented her and felt socially alive but it was a one time thing and now nothing. It's been 7 months since I talked with more familiar peers the last time in person. Most interactions in person have been with strangers so far actually. Do you relate to this phase too?
Yeah I am meeting many interesting people including women from diverse countries like Germany, France, US, Netherlands, UK, Mexico and even less known countries like Ivory Coast and also Indian women as well but most are strangers and one time interactions. What I am talking about is I don't have a routine currently and it feels frustrating and no people or peers whom I can regularly meet, talk to and share things. It's not always fun chatting on Instagram and sharing videos of cars i see etc unlike in person. Job searching is already making me stressed and the ghosting is making me feel less hopeful at times but I am definitely trying. I am 25 and miss having the proper routine and structure in my life. Yeah I never really had friends due to bullying and trust issues but things improved during MBA and I had several memorable people like Soniya, Anshika and also several male classmates who were supportive, some teasing but much different than school and engineering days. It's a shame that I socialized a lot on our MBA convocation 7 months ago and I even confidently talked to Anshika and complimented her and felt socially alive but it was a one time thing and now nothing. It's been 7 months since I talked with more familiar peers the last time in person. Most interactions in person have been with strangers so far actually. Do you relate to this phase too?
22-25, M
