Have you ever had a time in your life...

Its all good at the moment.

Yes I've had really great years of self love and acceptance and adventure. Very content.

I did feel like I deserved it, but it.comes and goes.

Never. If I had my choice I wouldn't go anywhere near me.

that time is now like i could be way better in all sorts of ways but i'm still happy anyway despite reality and failure?

Yes I've several of those moments in my life time. Some sadly through competition which I had to celebrate on my own because the people who mattered most to me didn't come to watch.

These days I just mostly take life as it comes.

Im scared to say it but yes right now i feel that way

I don't know about "deserve", but I was very grateful and happy for it. I definitely slept well. 🙂