Was it bad of me to criticize my own country when arguing with mom?
So today on Sunday I didn't go out. My mom as usual started suddenly scolding me about my job because I am still not getting a job yet but done with MBA already. So the scoldings are happening quite frequently whenever I am in home. So we(we are from West Bengal state of India originally) live in Munnekolala area of our city Bangalore in India which is already boring compared to the more cosmopolitan Central Bangalore areas. On top of that she can be very demotivating and even compared me to my peers and family friend's sons who are working and more successful and one even got married whereas I am still having no job which already stings at 25. I got angry and said I am an adult and I need freedom but she said for freedom you need money. Then after constant frustration and comparison, I started criticizing my country India saying how bad the country is, always pressure since school days about marks, grades, college, job etc, always comparing, always worried what will people think.
She kept saying something might be wrong with me that's why I am not getting a job without even her understand the competition in job market in Bangalore, ATS filtering and my domain Business Analytics. She keeps saying how I wasted 2 years in my MBA. So I got so angry that I said how unlucky I feel being born in this ghatiya(low quality) country and even called my country is a shithole in anger and even saying why happiness index rank is quite low in India and how frustrating it is here. She also kept scolding saying "then why didn't you work hard enough to study abroad?" She also gave me Bengali slangs like kutta saala etc. It was a lot of heated argument. She kept saying how others are working even the ones who performed academically poorer than me in grades. Idk why she is so worried. I even got referred by some friend with a lots of corporate connections in a big company where I filled the application and gave test but as it happened right before the weekend and Friday was holiday too as it was 1st May, there was 3 days of holidays and no update which will happen in the weekdays. My whole mood got worse in this scolding. Do you feel I was being wrong by criticizing my country even in anger?
She kept saying something might be wrong with me that's why I am not getting a job without even her understand the competition in job market in Bangalore, ATS filtering and my domain Business Analytics. She keeps saying how I wasted 2 years in my MBA. So I got so angry that I said how unlucky I feel being born in this ghatiya(low quality) country and even called my country is a shithole in anger and even saying why happiness index rank is quite low in India and how frustrating it is here. She also kept scolding saying "then why didn't you work hard enough to study abroad?" She also gave me Bengali slangs like kutta saala etc. It was a lot of heated argument. She kept saying how others are working even the ones who performed academically poorer than me in grades. Idk why she is so worried. I even got referred by some friend with a lots of corporate connections in a big company where I filled the application and gave test but as it happened right before the weekend and Friday was holiday too as it was 1st May, there was 3 days of holidays and no update which will happen in the weekdays. My whole mood got worse in this scolding. Do you feel I was being wrong by criticizing my country even in anger?
22-25, M
