It's a shame that I can talk to strangers too but not known ones. Do you feel it's bad?
So as you all know in my previous posts i mentioned that my dad's ex-colleague's son Ayush is getting married. He is 24 and I am 25 and we basically grew up studying in the same school, tuition and we have been family friends. His main wedding is fine and today is the last reception which we Bengalis call as Bou Bhaat. It's happening in Varthur area of our city Bangalore in India. But yeah one thing which is making me sad is how Ayush's school days friends are here who are also 24-25 and were just a grade below me and I am unable to socialize with the women. Actually I did talk to them during Ayush's engagement 5-6 months ago showing the women my new confident self as they saw me as the shy dude in school not talking to girls. But later my mom scolded me saying me that it's immature to run behind multiple women and my reputation will go down and the Bengal family friends circle will gossip about me. Yeah this worry about what will people think is ingrained in many Indians so yeah my mom kept warning me saying me not to go behind women and only talk if someone initiates and that the right woman will come one day.
Today I am seeing that group again having talks, laughs and I am unable to approach the women in that group and they know me but we weren't that close in school. If I want i can very easily approach but I am not because my mom is often around and she would again scold in home. It's a shame i can easily approach women even strangers and foreign expats too in Cafes, bookstores and upscale malls like UB City and in areas like Indiranagar, Church Street, Lavelle road etc but yet unable to talk to more known women from my school days. If only I was solo here, I could have talked or if I met them in Church Street. With so many families around especially the Bengali circles, a direct approach to the women will definitely become a gossip topic and these circles do gossip. It's a shame i am unable to talk to women in my age group here. Especially considering how much I socialized yesterday, today feels worse and boring. What do you feel?
Today I am seeing that group again having talks, laughs and I am unable to approach the women in that group and they know me but we weren't that close in school. If I want i can very easily approach but I am not because my mom is often around and she would again scold in home. It's a shame i can easily approach women even strangers and foreign expats too in Cafes, bookstores and upscale malls like UB City and in areas like Indiranagar, Church Street, Lavelle road etc but yet unable to talk to more known women from my school days. If only I was solo here, I could have talked or if I met them in Church Street. With so many families around especially the Bengali circles, a direct approach to the women will definitely become a gossip topic and these circles do gossip. It's a shame i am unable to talk to women in my age group here. Especially considering how much I socialized yesterday, today feels worse and boring. What do you feel?
22-25, M
