New outlook on this so called life.

You are emotionally burnt out by the sounds of things. You need to take some time to take care of you. You are constantly taking care of people who have a high level of support needs and that can absolutely drain you.

You keep giving and giving but you get nothing back so after a while you kind of build an invisible wall of protection around yourself and start caring on autopilot whilst getting more and more tired and it becomes a vicious circle.

Add that with your own personal grief and it's really not surprising you're struggling. Maybe resigning might be a bit final, it's a big decision to make when you're grieving and your head is not in the right place to be objective. Can you take time off instead?

As for SW. You can put your account on hiatus and just take a break if you need to. We don't know each other very well but it would be a shame not to see you around. Xx

Wow the SW made you not turst anymore?

death is when people display their true self. most my family is buried months before im told anything happened. or no invitation to weddings

Woah ....this is dark, but i get whem its all too much, and all so lonely - you gotta pull your energy in.

I dont want to be hurtful to those i like here but....it is just a chat site. We really arent in esch others lives or truly know each other.

And yeah "friends".... what even is that word these days? Everyone is too busy looking out for themselves, its a rude shock that when you need help ..... there isn't any.

I feel for ya man. Its a fucking slap in the face when ur life goes ass up ..... and you have to fo it alone😞

If I could I would attack hug you. I'd squeeze you with all my might and apologize for all the hurt you have faced that has calcified your empathy. I have no idea what you're experiencing but my Grandmother once told me that ants don't have bones. This was after I pointed out that her jug of water had an ant in it.She didn't care, she drank it anyway.There is no deep lesson here.It's just a memory.I thought I'd share.

Seems like you have apathy & that's understandable. I can only wish you the ability to to feel all your feelings and process your grief when you're ready. People can suck big time but those of us who care still exist.