How did my life turn out?

I frequented this site when I was lonely and starving for connection, for many years. I was longing for a relationship, not online, a real one. As it turns out, it never happened for me. In my 40s, I started a family on my own. which brought me much happiness and connection. I wanted deep friendships, too. That didn't happen either, but I learned that it's important to keep people around, especially when you have kids. It made me learn to overlook a lot of things that would have otherwise drawn me away into my private bubble..

I never had the courage to leave behind a career that I found unsatisfying, but I found ways to manage it. It wasn't high-paying by any means, and there was always financial stress, but it became the only thing I knew, safer than the unknown. Plus with mouths to feed it was more pragmatic than starting over.

I bought a house. I was so proud of myself at first. But it might be the one regret. There are too many anxious sleepless nights. Anyway, that's my life. I gave up on romantic love and companionship. I gave up on deep friendships. I gave up on the notion of a job I loved. That being said, I'm a lot happier than I was when I was strung along by false hope. Sometimes, giving up and accepting your circumstances is the best thing you can do for your mental health.