do you process externally or internally?
for the most part, i will talk about something once it’s already over and in the past, not while it’s happening.
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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F
I process messily. I'm working on processing things in therapy, some of it I can't remember. I'm starting EDMR in December.
I'm all over the place because I'm deeply alone. What I go through, I usually try to vent asap because there's no more room in me to store it for a "better" time. So I'm kinda off the wall. People keep me at a distance, understandably for their peace, but that still leaves me bleeding out. So I just bleed. I just let myself be the raw one and I take my beach walks and smoke my weed and go to therapy and vent on here in ways that would probably get me locked in a looney bin irl.
I wish there was space inside me to hide, but it's full, and not all of it is bad. A lot is good. It's just that when nobody gives a shit about you, you don't get the luxury of doing things when it suits. I just bleed.
I'm all over the place because I'm deeply alone. What I go through, I usually try to vent asap because there's no more room in me to store it for a "better" time. So I'm kinda off the wall. People keep me at a distance, understandably for their peace, but that still leaves me bleeding out. So I just bleed. I just let myself be the raw one and I take my beach walks and smoke my weed and go to therapy and vent on here in ways that would probably get me locked in a looney bin irl.
I wish there was space inside me to hide, but it's full, and not all of it is bad. A lot is good. It's just that when nobody gives a shit about you, you don't get the luxury of doing things when it suits. I just bleed.
