I can't tell if i am going crazy

The manager keeps mentioning to me how her new apartment is "smaller than [mine]", and all kinds of reasons that she doesn't like it and it's not good.

I guess she is trying to make me feel guilty, since supposedly I am the reason she is leaving town.

She chose to resign and she chose that apartment. I don't really understand.

We got in a fight, but we have been in many this summer. This is just the one I started, and admitted to her that I don't like listening to her talk negatively about others, and that I was upset at some of the things she has said to me in the past.

P.S. she also got angry at me that I joined a book club without telling her

wut

I noticed I kind of hold my breath around her and get this sick feeling because I am always nervous about what she is going to say or how angry she is going to get, or what kind of guilt-tripping nonsense I will have to listen to.