My current thought is that if I die, everyone will be happier

I am not upset with you. You go through a lot and it's already a miracle you are still a kind loving person.

I for one don`t want you to die and in no way am I upset with you. I`ll not sit here and say I know what youre going through, because I don`t. But do keep up the fight, please.

Sounds like depression doing the talking. When you’re upset with someone, would you feel happier if they died? Or is the upset temporary, something that will pass as it always has? Much like your moods.

I won't be.
You're a good person.

your family wont be
and anyone else with a heart

That's a lie your mind is telling you, they won't be happier. Hang in there.

No, they won't.