Sometimes I want it to happen and sometimes I'm afraid it's coming

I don't want to die.

But I know I don't want to be reincarnated.

My heart seems physically to pang...every now and then. I suspect kidney pain every now and then too...

I don't know.

I don't want the act of actually dying....but.....being actually passed away... if it meant not coming back again...I think I want that.

You know the feeling of just not wanting to do it any more? Not anything. Not gaming. Not,

Well.

If you know you know.

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