People look down on me a lot..
I am a 35 year old single woman, never married, no kids, I have failed relationships behind me, struggling financially because I work alone in my house. An Associate at work, not an Executive. Snooty colleagues and even strangers rub their noses around me, smirk and glare at me.
They look down on me because they think, "Oh, she couldn't find anyone despite her age" ! A few genuine ones see me as a charity case. They want to give me company because poor thing she is alone !
Honestly, I don't need the sympathy. I am alone because I want to be alone. We live in a shallow world. You don't have to be Angelina Jolie or Tom Cruise attractive to get attention. Even if you are just mildly attractive or cute, it is easier to find friendships, relationships or someone for marriage. I want to be alone, it has worked like therapy (since I can't afford therapy). A few negative experiences and I am done with people. I only allow peace people in my life now not chaos people. If you know what I mean.
For both, my personal and professional life coworkers, cousins, relatives look down on me. I don't have a herd mentality. If that makes me average, so be it. Not everyone in this world is crazy about success, money, selfies, partying, drinking, drugs, celebrities, city life, competition, instagram, etc Not everyone wants to be a part of the rat race. My state of mind has been so fragile for quite sometime now that I can't even handle good chaos (party, loud extroverts, crowds) forget about handling bad chaos (abusers, fakes, backstabbers, gossipers, narcissists).
I am chasing happiness, not success. I've had coworkers call me a loser "jokingly". I just want a simple life. Born and raised in a city but I am ready to leave the chaotic traffic fueled city life in a heartbeat.
I am not selling drugs, I am not running behind a married man, I am not stealing anyone's money or boyfriend, I don't smoke or drink, I am not doing anything wrong !! I don't deserve the hate !!!
Right now money is a priority, I accept because I have loans going on plus rent. I have a lott of obligations and my mom is a single mother, 0 alimony, no financial help from my father ever.
Peace 2 All 🕊✌
They look down on me because they think, "Oh, she couldn't find anyone despite her age" ! A few genuine ones see me as a charity case. They want to give me company because poor thing she is alone !
Honestly, I don't need the sympathy. I am alone because I want to be alone. We live in a shallow world. You don't have to be Angelina Jolie or Tom Cruise attractive to get attention. Even if you are just mildly attractive or cute, it is easier to find friendships, relationships or someone for marriage. I want to be alone, it has worked like therapy (since I can't afford therapy). A few negative experiences and I am done with people. I only allow peace people in my life now not chaos people. If you know what I mean.
For both, my personal and professional life coworkers, cousins, relatives look down on me. I don't have a herd mentality. If that makes me average, so be it. Not everyone in this world is crazy about success, money, selfies, partying, drinking, drugs, celebrities, city life, competition, instagram, etc Not everyone wants to be a part of the rat race. My state of mind has been so fragile for quite sometime now that I can't even handle good chaos (party, loud extroverts, crowds) forget about handling bad chaos (abusers, fakes, backstabbers, gossipers, narcissists).
I am chasing happiness, not success. I've had coworkers call me a loser "jokingly". I just want a simple life. Born and raised in a city but I am ready to leave the chaotic traffic fueled city life in a heartbeat.
I am not selling drugs, I am not running behind a married man, I am not stealing anyone's money or boyfriend, I don't smoke or drink, I am not doing anything wrong !! I don't deserve the hate !!!
Right now money is a priority, I accept because I have loans going on plus rent. I have a lott of obligations and my mom is a single mother, 0 alimony, no financial help from my father ever.
Peace 2 All 🕊✌
