I failed at life but I knew this would happen when all I did was drink and want to do nothing else

You have plenty of time to live your life honestly, there is no reason to give up in your early to mid 30s.

Are you 23, or 31-35 like your profile says? Get some help, take charge of your life, if you do nothing then it means you like living this way.

Mental insecurity for 1

Yeah, I drink beer every night