I think it's getting to be too much

No one understands. All the changes, all the things I've had taken away from me, all the pain. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm ready to just be done with it all. It sucks and I feel my depression is hitting harder than it has in a very long time. The three things I used to enjoy more than anything were pokemon, football, and food. Food used to be a major source of happiness for me. I'll admit, I'm a very picky eater. That being said, I always had a core group of foods that were my go-tos. Any time I was stressed, I had a bad day, I had a good day, any kind of celebration. Those certain foods always served as a pick me up. Now, they're all gone and I'm not even sure I can comprehend life without them.