I don't know if my parents ever meant to hurt me or not.
I remember being constantly fearful of my dad's anger or disapproval but anything further or more specific than that may be mixed up in emotions or obscured by time.
I know that I was told in my adult life by a professional that my symptoms qualify me for PTSD. It was on my list of diagnoses. What from... I guess this can be repeated: it may be mixed up in emotions or obscured by time. It isn't necessarily my parents' fault.
It doesn't matter anyway. My parents are old. Healthy but old. I don't want to spend the rest of their life demonizing them. It's best for me to assume they did their best and nothing related to whatever trauma I have was their doing.
I know that I was told in my adult life by a professional that my symptoms qualify me for PTSD. It was on my list of diagnoses. What from... I guess this can be repeated: it may be mixed up in emotions or obscured by time. It isn't necessarily my parents' fault.
It doesn't matter anyway. My parents are old. Healthy but old. I don't want to spend the rest of their life demonizing them. It's best for me to assume they did their best and nothing related to whatever trauma I have was their doing.
