Going through a crisis rn-
Decided to remember my childhood (FOR SOME REASON) and now there's a question that won't leave me alone. Was I neglected in a way??
Like, my parents cared for me, but they were always busy, so I kind of just raised myself and hid away in my room.
It got worse when they divorced. My mum was working like- practically 24/7 and I never saw my dad. And it's not like they wouldn't talk to me, they just weren't able to be there.
Few years after they divorced, it got.. kind of better?
I've been so used to being alone that I would just stay in my room. When my mum wanted to hang out with me it just felt.. weird.
I'm.. weird with affection. Like.. I don't want hugs, they feel weird and out of place, yet when someone hugs me, I don't want them to ever let go and just stay there like that forever.
(someone help this has been bothering me for WEEKS-)
Like, my parents cared for me, but they were always busy, so I kind of just raised myself and hid away in my room.
It got worse when they divorced. My mum was working like- practically 24/7 and I never saw my dad. And it's not like they wouldn't talk to me, they just weren't able to be there.
Few years after they divorced, it got.. kind of better?
I've been so used to being alone that I would just stay in my room. When my mum wanted to hang out with me it just felt.. weird.
I'm.. weird with affection. Like.. I don't want hugs, they feel weird and out of place, yet when someone hugs me, I don't want them to ever let go and just stay there like that forever.
(someone help this has been bothering me for WEEKS-)
22-25, C
