Feeling numb

In the span of 24 hours I’ve decided to seek legal action against someone, a loved one was rushed into heart surgery and a long time family friend who was fine two days ago is now in a hospital bed surrounded by her family saying goodbye. I’ve had another panic attack, seems my nervous system isn’t handling my anxiety lvls. Right now though I just feel numb. Any min I’m going to get the call that she’s passed. I have nervous energy and I feel like I need to deep clean my entire house but at the same time I can’t seem to move. Like I’m not real. Life is strange