I miss him

Since my boyfriend passed away on the 26th May 2024 life has been a learning curve. I've been trying my best to make me feel better. I cook nice meals and I've started wearing a little makeup again to pamper myself. Just a little concealer, lipstick and blush. I dont like to wear foundation. I like to let my natural skin show. It has helped boost my confidence as I was feeling a bit lost and well unlike me. In fact I'm having to find myself, the me I am without him. Which has been tough because I didn't really know where to start. But after much thought I decided I just need to take each day as it comes. To not try to be anything in particular. I don't need to wear a certain fashion or anything. I just need to wear what makes me comfortable. Plus I don't have to feel guilty when I laugh or smile because he'd want me to be happy. At first I thought I couldn't do life without him, that being alone would be too much. But I'm learning to be alone and enjoy the freedom of doing what I want when I want. I still have bad days but day by day I'm making it through and I'm ok!