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What Do I Really Want Out of Life?

Poll - Total Votes: 24
Health/Mental Health/Fitness
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I asked myself this today, with my toes sinking into the sand as the fog rolled into the beach. All my life, I worked hard to become what I thought I needed to be: successful, loved, respected. I have a college degree, credentials after my name, a gritty job, a handsome boyfriend, fancy dinners monthly, and a new car. So why do I feel so fragmented? I barely know what I want anymore.

Seeing so much death, I try to numb the stress and trauma of my job. I feel held hostage. Held hostage by my soul-crushing career, hypocritical and backstabbing bosses and co-workers. Held hostage by my emotionally abusive boyfriend. A hostage of money, responsibility, spending habits, and debt. This is not what I wanted. Parts of it, yes, but this doesn't make me happy. Last night I sat down and prayed to god to guide me in changing my life. I'm ready to do the work.

Poll: What aspects of your life would you like to change?
Gibbon · 70-79, M
Finding your person is the most rewarding thing in life. I speak from experience because I found mine and she too in me. It was EP of all places we found each other. She has passed but will forever be my person.
Abusive relationships are soul destroying and need to be undone.
Work issues can be addressed. There's always other options even when it doesn't seem so. It just takes an open mind and willingness sometimes to make a little less if need be.
chilloutab2 · 41-45, M
Every night I go to bed, silently screaming in my head: "Make it stop, make it go away". Life has progressively become excruciating.
All I want is peace. But that is wanting it all.
It's difficult to reconcile that it was never meant to be.. .that what I have got is what I deserve, because I do not have the strength to get what I want.

I wish you find what you're looking for!
LivLafLuv · 26-30, F
@chilloutab2 This hit too close to home. From battling insomnia to daydreaming during the day, sometimes I feel as if I’m living life in the wrong body… Hope it gets better for you
chilloutab2 · 41-45, M
@LivLafLuv And for you too!!
And if it doesn't get better for us, then I hope we develop the strength to bear what we get.
I miss working.
@Spoiledbrat why did you stop it?
@littlepuppywantanewlife To take care of my son. He had multiple illnesses. He died 7 years ago. And I just never went back. Instead I made budget cuts.
@Spoiledbrat sorry to hear this. I wish you could have multiple sources of income from home itself.
riseofthemachine · 41-45, M
Well I had the same experience but from a man's point of view .
2 cars .
A great job .
A girlfriend .
Foreign holidays .
I thought my life would be like this forever .
All went .
I got nervous breakdown.
Ended up in a psyche wards .
Suicidal attempts.
Dark thoughts .
Do you know the moral of the story is .
It's all inside you as well .
The word FOREVER .
That's why you want to end your life .
When everything that you believe gets shattered
Your going through the shattering experience.
Now go to person that you can talk too , or else it will get worse .
Umile · 41-45, F
You forgot the happiness option.

I just want to be happy.

SmileSunshine · 31-35, F
WOW! This is inspirational…as I was reading your post, I could definitely relate. So proud of you for coming to the place of realizing change and putting happiness first. 💛
Carazaa · F
I would like a lot of things in life, fun adventures, a nice place, happy family, success at work, but what is most important for me is to be pleasing to God in all I do.
I think you are doing EXACTLY the right thing.

You realized you have a problem; now you are open to change.

It's an exciting time! 😊😊😊
hippyjoe1955 · 61-69, M
You need to ask yourself this one very important question. "Are you stuck or do you want to be here?" Give yourself an honest answer.
I guess I want to most of it. That's how we are right , nothing seems enough. But tbh I need a better job atm and better health.
Midlifemale · 61-69, M
You need to ask yourself.... what is your passion job and life ? What makes you happy ?
Then find that and DO IT !!!
smiler2012 · 56-60
@stardustgirl🤔peace and happiness good healt and family
fun4us2b · M

We need this in our lives
goodlil666 · 51-55, M
Are you an ER nurse?

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