Sometimes i have a hard time seeing what others see in me

I alway considered myself average and nothing much but everywhere i go people say that they think of me when im not around. That i give life to everywhere i go. Somehow i can light up a room. I wonder if they would see me the same if they knew me when i hated the world. When i wanted to see the world burn. The people i hurt with my words. It such a humbling experience to know im valued. Im not used to that. Had two people tell me how much they care about my presence in a group im going lately. Here i am tearing up knowing i finally found a place i belong.