That's a thought-provoking dilemma! It's interesting that you bring up the contrast between religious and philosophical beliefs. Perhaps the key difference lies in the fact that believers rely on faith and acceptance, whereas philosophical beliefs, like solipsism, can be more individualistic and challenge the status quo. Just because solipsism may not align with mainstream thinking doesn't mean it's inherently egotistical or self-centered. It's essential to separate criticism of an idea from personal attacks or assumptions about one's character or beliefs. Keep exploring and questioning. Remember that followers of Jesus were attacked just as much as those who were still searching, and still are, some even losing their lives. But Jesus said, "I shall keep him in
perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Me, because he trusts in Me." Isaiah 26:3
Scripture says that God is not the author of confusion. When we follow Jesus, he helps us think straight, and guides our life through His Holy Spirit. He really is our safe place in a confused and troubled world. Jesus said "Come to Me, and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28 - Jesus said, "Come unto Me, all who are weary and overburdened and I will give you rest."
We can search the world over but there is no substitute for the love, peace, and joy that Jesus gives. He is the answer. He will never leave you nor abandon you.