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What’s the point of living?

I just don’t see life as worth living. I will be 26 in a few days, and yes I see that everyone struggles and even feels the same exact way that I feel. But idk, I just feel like I can’t do it. I still live with my mom annd me annd her anre constantly clashing and some days I just feel very depressed and anxious. I would really love nothing more than to leave but Im just not sure if I can manage life on my own. Nowadays they want you to make 3x what they charge for rent, and im just so tired at this point in my life and I barely even have bills to pay. I don’t understand how people manage and survive all this. I just feel like im amongst the weak. I can’t do this life. I really don’t want to. Im weighing the choices of continuing living this life or just ending it early and finally being at peace. Death sounds so much better than continuing to live in this system. It’s just come to a point where I hate everything. I love my parents, but I hate them for bringing me here and barely knowing what to do with me. I low key hate God for having a part in this. Im not grateful for life no matter how much I try to remind myself that I have shelter. I hate myself. There feels like theres no point in my existence. I will literally kill myself if I have children and see any part of myself in them. I don’t see a family tree extending from me at all. I just hate all of this and don’t see a point. I try so hard to tell myself other people go through this, and even worse. But I’m just at a point where I dont want to be alive anymore, I just don’t want to do this. Does anyone have any advice?
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Luckylu · 61-69, F
Basically, you are the only one who can choose. Either spend your life just as you are, change your life, your attitude into what you desire, learn who you really are, or give up. Giving up is always an option but if you give up and end it there are no more options and can you do it without thoroughly fucking it up and leaving yourself a physical mess that you cannot change? Why not get over yourself and explore this world? Find what lights you up like a Christmas tree in the middle of the night? If you are avoiding who you are because you think no one will like that person well get over it. Avoiding who you really are will cause you misery no matter what. Embrace who you are, learn to love yourself and bring into your life those things that give you joy. Spend this life learning to be the best person you can be for yourself and your life will follow and be the best it can be for you. It took me 40 years to learn this don’t be like me and wait so long.
Edashh2399 · 26-30, F
@Luckylu thank you, the positivity is very uplifting. And it’s true it’s all my decision, I do tell myself that if I kill myself now that I won’t get to enjoy the things I used to like watching the sun rise. My mind just feel so hazy. But you’re right.