It's interesting how it can creep back in, in the most innocuous way

Everything feels fine, and then you have one.

And suddenly, you're drinking every night again. (I'm not tonight, but I really want to.)

Not to excess, but still. Enough to get drunk.

And I'm barely eating anything, and I'm not really sleeping well.

Everything was okay, but I just go into these lapses.

I'm so fucking lonely.