Hellooo SW. Slept and woke up optimistic.

Feeling a little better. Yesterday night I took time to cook for my host and she was super appreciative about it. It was lovely and healing for me too, cook like that, slowly..
She's helping me relax too, telling me to postpone my worry and somehow this brings me into the beauty of the present.
She's talented, intelligent and in a big transformation after an accident that she had.
We're becoming friends and that's so cool:)
I asked to be sent an angel and I think I got what I asked for. But it feels so good because, I feel like I'm the angel sent to her too in different moments.

I'm dreaming every night about my shifu and that I'm training. In reality I am not training, taking a break.

I had a video call with a friend yesterday too and he lifted my moods, just by sharing his things. I was happy to hear.

Yet I still need to take a decision today and change my ticket. Without a Chinese visa I can't fly to China and....... Is it possible that I exit the retreat, my visa will be ready on that day, I will be able to go and collect it and fly the next day? Yes, it can be possible.

But what are the chances? And if it won't work like that, I'll lose my ticket. And I'm in a position where buying plane tickets is stretching my budget a lot.
I still need to think and take a decision.