I am def not doing well. I feel like I’ve wasted this life. I have everything everything, and I still couldn’t use it to make a good life for myself.

there are too many variables to consider in any situation or combination of situations to ever be fully blameable. i know what it's like to be so tired. i've wasted my life, i'm 38 and have ignored humanity almost entirely that my life is bereft of meaning. but i realized that there is no inherient meaning in anything, and decided to start from square one and what i get done i get done. maybe i got over the pain, maybe i'm truly dead inside and honestly stopped caring. .. either way, if you want to discuss the ruins of existence and what to do with them, give me a shout.