2023, I don’t like you.

Since I made the decision to remove toxic people from my life, I've been feeling lonely. You would expect that removing them would make you feel better, but that wasn't the case for me. Actually, it was traumatic. Surprisingly, I found myself happier when they were still around, even though they were fake towards me.

In terms of my professional life, I've experienced a lot of disappointments. It feels like people took pleasure in betraying me for their own personal gain. Emotionally, I didn't handle these situations well. I kept my feelings bottled up, which only resulted in daily stress and anxiety, eventually leading to my first panic attacks.

When it comes to my relationship, my partner has some expectations. I, on the other hand, desire something more relaxed and easy-going. She frequently complains that I don't text, call, or do enough, despite my efforts to keep up.

The past few years have been challenging for me, and at times, I've faced even greater failures than in 2023. However, the accumulated effect of past events has left me emotionally vulnerable, making it incredibly difficult for me to cope with the current year. It feels quite traumatic