I’ve been looking in all the wrong places for hope.

I sought legal and medical help.
I asked for support from my wife and family.
For months and months I have prayed and listened.
The most foolish thing I did was speak to SW users.

But the truth is I will do it myself. I will be my own hope.

But if that is to be, nobody can ever question my character ever again. In the end it’s just me, so I’ll decide to be whatever I need to be to survive. And if groups, people, family or even god doesn’t like it, that’s too bad. I’ll do this thing, I’ll see it through.

The world had its chance. Time is up.