Still need to find myself “Who Am I?” I’ve been to bars. I’ve been to high end places. I’ve...

ZulXeroth · 31-35, M

Easier to lose oneself in others than it is to find them.

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

"The wind sits in the shoulder of your sail,
And you are stay'd for. There; my blessing with thee!
And these few precepts in thy memory
See thou character. Give thy thoughts no tongue,
Nor any unproportioned thought his act.
Be thou familiar, but by no means vulgar.
Those friends thou hast, and their adoption tried,
Grapple them to thy soul with hoops of steel;
But do not dull thy palm with entertainment
Of each new-hatch'd, unfledged comrade. Beware
Of entrance to a quarrel, but being in,
Bear't that the opposed may beware of thee.
Give every man thy ear, but few thy voice;
Take each man's censure, but reserve thy judgment.
Costly thy habit as thy purse can buy,
But not express'd in fancy; rich, not gaudy;
For the apparel oft proclaims the man,
And they in France of the best rank and station
Are of a most select and generous chief in that.
Neither a borrower nor a lender be;
For loan oft loses both itself and friend,
And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry.
This above all: to thine ownself be true,"

eyeno · M

the Big Picture
What you've done as you've described seems normal. (As if you were describing my life and millions of others.)

Briefly...your searching for a sense of purpose.
Know that family, friends, strangers, work, play, and any direct interaction you have has an impact on everyone and everything.

You were meant to be there, make it count
My Dad out of the blue one day looked at me and said sternly and purposefully, "In life you have to believe in something, anything !".
At the time I was a troublesome teen and had no direction or purpose. So I sat there quietly and took that statement to heart not knowing what he was talking about.

MoonlightLullaby

Just coming from personal experience, most of us don't know who we really are until our 40's. There have been times were I thought I'd found myself, only to realize I was still lost. Self love usually kicks in around that age too, and things start coming together. Keep self reflecting and try not to get discouraged. Be gentle with yourself....
You're still growing just yet 😉🌷