I remember in junior school when I read david copperfield, my biggest fear became turning out like Dora.

She was pretty, but weak and frail and naive, and couldn't handle life. I had very low self-esteem, and Dora was negatively portrayed in the novel for losing at life, with David finally realizing his true love of life had been a much more shrewd, wise, bright and sophisticated woman (agnes).
I'm 29 now. Almost fainted at work because my body is extremely tired. I feel like I don't have the mental stamina to get through life. I feel like Dora. A loser who attracts people initially only for them to soon find out I'm just naive and stupid and not smart enough to ace at life. I feel deeply hurt. I've done so much and achieved so much, yet I always fall short of what those around me have achieved. I'm still the stupid one in the crowd. Now the umpteenth friend seems to be slowly dropping me. I feel like I'm an inconvenience for everyone I become friends with.