It never ends....

@Jenny1234 Because of where I'm at in life. I should have things figured out by now. I should be successful. Instead, I've become a lazy, pessimistic loser.

@KingNewb This struck a chord with me. When I was thirty, my sister-in-law (45) told me she was so frustrated with her 20-yr marriage, she was considering divorce.

And I thought, Geez! by 45, you ought to have everything figured out.

Now I'm 71, and I still haven't "figured out everything."

Your thoughts about yourself continue to project your image of yourself. Try being kinder to you, keep your head up and look for good things in life. A walk on a cold sunny day. A great meal. A perfect peach. Those things are there. You have to teach yourself to find them.

And find someone to talk to, maybe a therapist for starters. .

@Mamapolo2016 I've tried that approach for a long time. It always ends up the same way of me feeling undeserving of good things in life. I'd never be able to talk to a therapist. I don't open up to those I'm close to. I surely won't open up to someone being paid to talk to me.

@KingNewb Worth a try to turn things around?

@KingNewb Few of us deserve the good things in life. They are gifte.

@Mamapolo2016 Possibly. Years ago I tried therapy and it didn't work. True.... good things in life are definitely gifts.

@KingNewb I wish you well.

@Mamapolo2016 Thank you, the wish is mutual.