It never ends....

....just laying around again, with nothing to do, on a night off from work. I try to talk to others, but it seems that I'm only ever a burden. I don't know.... maybe I'm just not meant to have friends. That has to be a reality for someone right? Sometimes I think it's the karmic universe paying me back for being a piece of shit in my younger years. Other times I think it's just lifes way of telling me that I'm a complete fuck up. Either way.... I get it now.

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beetlebumdont · 22-25, F

Im a fuck up

KingNewb · 31-35, M

@beetlebumdont I'm sorry you feel that way. If nothing else, I understand the feeling on the surface level. If you'd like to discuss or even just vent, I'll be more than glad to lend an ear.

beetlebumdont · 22-25, F

@KingNewb i ruin everything

KingNewb · 31-35, M

@beetlebumdont Now that I can completely relate to. I'm 100% in the same boat there.

beetlebumdont · 22-25, F

@KingNewb bpd?

KingNewb · 31-35, M

@beetlebumdont I've never been formally diagnosed for that, but it wouldn't surprise me if I had it based upon my research of its causes and affects. I've been diagnosed with depression and have lived with that for the past 20+ years and I've also developed more than mild social anxiety. I've ruined more than my fair share of things.