It’s good that my partner doesn’t want standard gender roles with a mate because I’m really not cut out to be a homemaker 🤣

The inherent lack of mental stimulation and creativity isn’t for me 😅 Also, as much as I hate to admit it, I am not good at maintaining my own routine. I get stuff done, but it feels like I’m floating. I keep things ‘lived in’ clean. I like to cook, but I have no foodie aspirations. I’m comfortable and bored. Time gets away from me.

I get way more accomplished when I’m out in the world where there’s external structure like a chess board with goals I’m crushing.

I try to remind myself to be grateful though for this opportunity to simply focus on my health, school, mom stuff and happy relationship stuff.
I suppose a little bit of it is that I’m used to having to manage a lot on my plate, ever burning my candle at both ends. These days feel.. wrong. I’ve become a restless creature who is not very good at standing still or tedium.

My body often reminds me though that now is not the time for me to be taking on extra commitments when pain days are so unpredictable.

It’s true what they say: if you don’t give yourself breaks, your body will make you.