I always want to go from one person to the next when a relationship ends, because it's what I've done my whole life

Just try to find someone to fill the void and make me feel like I'm not alone. I can feel myself wanting it, even now.

But my self-esteem and issues make it really hard for me to form healthy interpersonal relationships.

I think I really need to truly stop looking and just focus on myself for a year or two.

I just really wanna fk 😩🤣

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SW-User

Yes usually it's cause you dislike loneliness, or fear it or something related, usually about abandonment issues. I know that feeling cause I've made mistakes after being in shitty situations

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User it's hard, I've spent my whole life really thinking I don't need people, but I doooo soooo much. And I am just realising that.

Instead of finding it in a partner, I spend more time with friends and actually let them know how I'm feeling.

It helps so much, is healthy, and puts less stress on your partner. And also allows you to have a good support network should things end with said partner

Kinda rambled a bit

caccoon · 36-40

But yeah I really struggle with abandonment for sureeee

SW-User

@caccoon mm same like i love solitude but have cried lots of lonely nights and thinking about shitty attitudes of some people and bad experiences , like it's all hellish but I'm way better lately and making better decisions too..

caccoon · 36-40

@SW-User I'm sorry you're feeling that way sometimes 💙 it's a hard adjustment but I think worth it, and our joy of life will be stronger in the end 💙