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What am I supposed to do?

What am I supposed to do? This question constantly torments my mind, causes me pain and extreme anxiety. Unfortunately it's a question I will never have an answer to. What should I do with my life? there's no answer to that question for me! People expect me to have that figured out but the only thing that I have figured out is that people in general will not allow me to create a lifestyle,a career,a calling etc..

People are the problem and reason I cannot have a life, or be a part of society. People are cruel, restictive and close minded. Their stubbornness and general prejudice will always prevent me from being anything or having anything of significance.

We live in a closed door society; rather than a place of opportunity it is a place of opression.
I have gotten to the point where the cruelty of people has utterly ruined any chance I had of experiencing life, love, culture, friendship etc.

Through peoples sheer hatred I have lost all hope of and thus ability to move forward. There is simply no point of existing in a world with this much predjudice and discrimination.
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I dont know what you are supposed to do. What do you want to do?
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail Any slice of life would be nice: how bout having a chance at a career without the opression?
@Sebastianblack that does sound dreamy.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail I appreciate your concern but this isn't meant to be part of an ongoing discussion. Im stuck in my life and I just need to express myself,thank you for taking the time to read my frustrations.
@Sebastianblack I’m happy to. Well…i may need a thesaurus. Im not saying it brought time happiness… but I’m perfectly content listening, or, reading. Still, sorry life has been this way.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail I appreciate you. I rarely get any sympathy, not even from the little family I have. so yours means a whole lot.
@Sebastianblack I’m not even certain i understand part of what auto correct said. But i do care. It s my weakness, caring about people.. have you considered moving, going somewhere new?
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail I have thought about it. I just moved to a new state 4 years ago. Things were developing but then Covid hit,ruined 1 very important relationship. Then tragedy struck again.Its been a string of unrelated curses ever sense. Im not superstitious but maybe it has something to do with living smack beside a graveyard? I wish I could go far far away.
@Sebastianblack the graveyard is a nice scapegoat, but really, they are all dead. That one important relationship though, that likely made a big difference.
I’ve never gave much thought to curses, to terrible tragedies that happen with seemingly no real context to anything else, but…. Lately, things have made me think otherwise. Put your faith in the wrong place and the tragedies pile up. But there is no simple solution.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail I agree. Well what really hurts is that there's no lesson to be learned from it,just the same reasoning everytime: bad things happen to everyone eventually and theres no avoiding them or forseeing them. Anything that can go wrong probably will. I know it seems pessimistic but thats just how it feels.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail would you mind if I comment on some of your posts?
@Sebastianblack not at all, do what you wish.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail ahh,you don't have any posts? That's ok. Are you knew here? im not judging. just curious.
😬 I deleted them before I left this last time. @Sebastianblack I dont like leaving a lot of me to hang around when im not here.
Sebastianblack · 36-40, M
@nonsensiclesnail I get it.Some people will look to use any info they can against you. Haters are always lurking around the corner.