To be real, I think I am just unloveable and that’s okay. Like it really is.

I repel everyone eventually. I’m very rebellious and outspoken, yet quiet when people want to talk about mundane life things. I need fire and passion, deep intelligent conversations, and everyone just goes to work and complains about how boring it is to be normal. But when I’m silly and spunky, my energy hits their wall of disassociation and never budges them. So I concede that I am happy on my own. I find a bit of excitement when I need it and live an unordinary life full of adventure. That will have to fill up my soul. I don’t know what to do with my sweet heart, but to tuck it away safely. Maybe next life I will know what it feels like to be cherished 🖤

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SW-User

I don't think there's such a thing as being unlovable since people can love a variety of things in a person, sometimes things that others see as problematic, but maybe you feel that way about yourself? Like you don't love yourself?

RebelFox · 36-40, F

@SW-User Nah thing is I do love myself. I have taken that time to explore and learn myself deeply, make friends of my shadows and face my inner light. It’s the whole being drained over and over. I think my last bf killing himself really showed me how love just isn’t enough. I am there for my son and I. I love us and we have a beautiful life. But it doesn’t mean anyone will ever reciprocate or appreciate what I’ve done.

SW-User

@RebelFox yeah but you're assuming you're unlovable for their actions and that's just subjetive.
Ahh I don't believe in love much either, but for other reasons.
Either way you have a very interesting deep nature. For what I've seen here