How and when did you become your own worst enemy??

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jehova · 31-35, M

somewhere between age 25-27 when I got back from a trip to I think
Belarus, I shot myself in the head after being handed a gun. and I would say that was the worst decision of my life. I was my own worst enemy in that moment

Soossie

@jehova

Oh my God!! A Russian roulette?? Why would anyone hand you a gun and most importantly, why would you use it to shoot yourself??

jehova · 31-35, M

@Soossie I do not fear death thus I accept it so completely it will never come. But my sibling asked what I had done while in Belarus and my sibling's buddy had brought the revolver he had with him. I said let me see that gun, but never hand me it. If you do I'll show you why. It's what I was doing in Belarus. I had shot my self in the head and survived 14 times playing Russian roulette in Belarus, my fiancée at the time revived me 10 of the 15 I survived them all. Regardless after I convince my sibling and their buddy to put a silver bullet in the chamber. They convinced me to take the gun. I stood up held the gun to my right temple pulled the trigger didn't even fall over; my fiancée wasn't there to revive me so I survived but lost 3 years of memory.

Soossie

@jehova

Scary, indeed...

jehova · 31-35, M

@Soossie It's only now 6-10 years later that the bullet tracts are starting to heal. I figured out how to remove the residue from thew bullet so that it can/does heal.