Back in this headspace again. I hate it.

So you say you're cute and fun to be around?
What's your sign?
Are your pants a mirror because I can see myself in them. LOL
I was actually going to try to think of as many creepy things as I could to put in this comment but I stalled out early. LOL

I'm pretty sure you already know this but maybe I can put it into a different perspective for you that will help you let you wrap your head around it in a better frame of mind.
For the most part people suck. People suck really bad. I don't know if it's their fault or if it's this constant conflicting influx of what it means to find happiness. That didn't come out right.
Did I mention people suck? :-)
My anger management counselor put it as clear for me as I think anyone could possibly describe it.
Don't be afraid to be selfish. There's a big difference between looking out for yourself and being a narcissist. Don't worry about being a narcissist. It will never happen.
Try to be selfish. Try thinking of only you your son and your dog. Don't try to be something for someone else. You deserve good things in your life. You should also feel like you deserve those good things.
I think the one thing that I have learned from having such a f***** up life is that it's only as hard as you let it be.
You seem to be a caring and considerate person. You just want what everyone else wants and that is to be happy and have someone to share your life with. Don't forget you deserve to have that.
I know you're just bummed out right now but don't let yourself lock yourself away from the rest of the world.
As horrible as it's going to sound life isn't about what you do for other people. How you make other people feel. Of course that doesn't include your son. As far as he goes you know you would and could stop the sun in its orbit for him.
I guess in a very long winded way I am trying to say try being selfish for a while. Selfish is okay for good-hearted people to try out.

It's very hard for others to care as much about you *own* life as *you* do (except perhaps good/normal moms, and great dads).

Even your son will seem ungrateful, at some point, if he takes a pretty standard developmental arc; just remember thwt *he'll* likely come back by his late 20s.

Your strength is amazing. Keep on. You ARE having an effect, even if it is hard to see.

Take care!

There's that lovely Lennon quote that is just sooooo true, sweetie...

'Life is what happens whist your busy making plans..'

Just live...enjoy...be you....and if someone lovely comes into your life, then they come into your life. Turn your antenna on; be inclusive rather than exclusive, 'k?

😘

I care how you feel. But that doesnt matter. Im just some no body on the internet

I won't tell you how to feel about yourself, I will only tell you some other people appreciate you. 💜

Stop looking. You’re scaring them away.

Sorry. Had to say it

You are trying too hard.

Now you're ready. It has been my experience after your ready to give up and throw in the towel. And then more waiting. 😔